How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Psalm 13:1-2
Wresting with your thoughts is common, isn’t it? Wrestling indicates struggle. We don’t wrestle with the joyful, pleasant thoughts – just the difficult ones.
Life is difficult. There is much to think about and many things that can be disappointing. For David, he had enemies who were looking to harm him. Disappointing turns to dangerous and there are an increasing number of things, it seems, to be concerned about.
The Psalm itself is asking the question: “How long?” How long will I have to keeping doing this? How long until You answer?
David arrives to where I need to be, too – praise to God. David does not wait to praise God until after the answer comes. He worships while waiting. In the context of wrestling with concerning thoughts, I need to worship God.
I do not wait for the answer because the answer is not what will make God worthy of worship. He is God! He sees the answer before the question. He is Almighty and there is none like Him.
So enemies scheme and disappointments come and God receives worship regardless of my wrestling heart.
Father, I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation. I will sing Your praise for You have been good to me.