You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
Here is a wonderful biblical truth that also causes me to wrestle with prayer: God is the Omnniscient One. He knows everything, and time does not restrict Him, so He completely and thoroughly knows everything from all time simultaneously.
The wrestling with prayer has been, so why bother? God already knows. “So here’s my prayer request, Father… but you already knew that.”
Wrestling this to the ground has brought me to a place of great assurance, however, not cynicism. David in Psalm 139 arrived to that place of worship too.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
So my prayer is the same as David’s at the end of his devotional entry. This is classic and awesome!
Heavenly Father, search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.