“Oh, that my words were recorded,
that they were written on a scroll,
that they were inscribed with an iron tool on lead,
or engraved in rock forever!
I know that my Redeemer lives,
and that in the end he will stand upon the earth.
And after my skin has been destroyed,
yet in my flesh I will see God;
I myself will see him
with my own eyes—I, and not another.
How my heart yearns within me!
It takes someone in despair to feel these words. If life is fine with no problems, you can still appreciate these words… they are nice… but they lack the power that is evident when someone at the end of themselves speaks them. That’s the case here in Job 19. Job was despairing because of his worse-than-dire circumstances. Yet Job’s faith says in the midst of his pain, “I know that my Redeemer lives! He is not dead and I will one day see Him. Yes, in my flesh will I see God.”
Difficult days (weeks, months!) are never welcomed, but they bring a level of faith and dependence on God that is not possible during easy days. God decides to leave us in pain, often. He is not a personal super-hero in our lives who flies to the rescue at the first sign of a miscue. When things don’t go perfectly, He allows us to experience the pain, promising to never leave us (Matthew 28:20).
It must be that God’s agenda for me is more than just a conflict-free life. (It seems as though following Christ often leads me into conflict!) God is more interested in my character than my convenience, so difficult days come. I’ve yet to suffer as Job did… but even Job knew that God was working even when it didn’t seem like it. God is working. I can trust him! My task is to stay as close to His heart and His plan as possible, regardless of the day.
Lord Jesus, You said that You would be with Your disciples who were carrying out Your mission. You said that you’d be with us to the ‘very end of the age.’ We’re not there yet, so I believe that Your are with me! You are with Your people! Increase my faith in You and bring glory to Yourself through me. Live Your life through me is my prayer this day. I love You, Lord. Help me to feed Your sheep.